Major Changes

DH and I are both going through some major life changes right now, and it feels amazing! I'm not going to be sad about the IUI anymore. It's in the past, it didn't work, and we're moving on.

Right now, instead of focusing on my own sadness which I've done for way too long, I'm going to start enjoying life for the first time in a long time. DH joined Gold's Gym a few weeks ago and has bought some sessions with a personal trainer. They're expensive and I was against it at first, but he pointed out to me that if he's going to get in shape, he needs to make sure that he doesn't injure himself in the process. So, that means he needs to make sure he's using the equipment properly as he's getting back to working out again for the first time in over 10 years. DH joined the Air Force right after high school and had to drop weight to get in...obviously he had to work out throughout Basic Training and all of that, but then he was in the Guard and did the whole one-weekend a month thing (to pay for college). He gained ALL of the weight he had lost and then some. I am so, so proud of him and this is something I have been wanting him to do for YEARS. Funny how nagging doesn't work. If it wasn't for the crappy S/A results, I don't know if he ever would've found this motivation. He's watching everything he eats, counting calories and is working out. I am so, so proud of him and am so lucky to have him.

So I can't have DH out there working out, getting fit, while I sit around and feel sorry for myself. It's just not going to happen. I lost 20 lbs. on Weight Watchers a few years ago, then got laid off from my job, got depressed and gained it all back. I've been yo-yo dieting for pretty much as far back as I can remember and I'm done with that too. I've decided, I'm joining Gold's Gym and DH and I are going to start having workout dates! We went and worked out together yesterday and after 40 minutes of some cardio, I high fived DH and said, "We're doing this." If I'm not going to get pregnant, then I'm going to get skinny! I can't remember the last time I felt so determined about something and I'm really really excited about it. When I was doing Weight Watchers a few years ago, DH kind of laughed at me. He complimented me, said I looked better, but I never really felt like he was 100% supportive of my efforts. I was hoping that my weight loss would motivate him and it didn't. Then I gained it back and obviously that wasn't going to motivate him, lol. But now we're doing it together.

Take that, Infertility. I'll show you -- you think you're going to get us down, but we're fighting back!